Recently I have come to a tipping point in my health, I wake up nearly every morning feeling sick to my stomach and unwilling to eat. This past week, since I’ve gotten my wisdom teeth out, it has been a million times worse, nauseous all day long, unwilling to eat, hunger but soon overcome by nausea.
So I finally went to the dr. who prescribed me some ant-acid pills and anti nausea pills (which i am only to take as needed and which can cause headaches) Because I evidently have acidic buildup in my stomach. Well, thats all fine and dandy but its not helping.
This morning I spent 10 minutes throwing up bile, and subsequently dry heaving once the bile was all out.
This is ridiculous, it is gotten to the point where I can not think of anything else, nothing else is on my mind, I can’t process information, my brain is on a fucking hiatus, and making it a million times worse because I’m stressing out about all the things I need to do but it all just seems so menial in the light of the fact that I feel like I’m falling apart.
It really is causing a great depression in me, I don’t want to do anything but sleep all day because that seems to be the only thing that feels better. I am not eating for fear of being sick, which is causing me to become malnourished, I want to cry all the time. I just want something to fix it.
I try my best to not let fear control my life, to manifest itself in a way in which I allow it to provide me with roadblocks, and let it prevent me from achieving my goals.
But somehow, recently fear has seeped into my life. And I’m afraid its taking control. And I don’t know how to get the control back. I am lost.
holy shit, the notes….
This has more notes than the ‘Make Dean in gym shorts the most reblogged pic on tumblr’
1 million more than the last time this crossed my dash.